I Guess This Is Growing Up.

The other day JB fired up Blink 182's “Dammit” during his radio show for Number Ones. I've never really been a big Blink 182 fan, but I've always enjoyed this song. 

Blink 182 was just one of those angst filled teenage bands like Sum 41, Eve 6, and Treble Charger that were just kind of there on the radio. Everyone seemed to like them so I paid them no real attention as I was going through my metal and punk phase.

Anyways, Dammit. I didn't really pay attention to it all that much until a couple years ago. I was either driving home or doing something mundane after a day of work with the radio on, and the lyrics caught my ear. They weren't earth shattering good, but they captured this feeling I had. I wasn't happy, and nothing was really what I thought growing up would be like. Nothing says you are in your early 20's like several existential crises. About four months later I'd be on a plane to Europe, but that is another story. 

It was that line in the chorus I think that summed it all up for me “Well, I guess this is growing up.”

Every time I hear this song I stop, and kind of think about things. Dammit always seems to bring up all those thoughts I have as a twenty-something of not quite understanding what it is like to be a grown up. Sure I know what it is like to pay bills, rent, and all the other fun stuff. I just get the feeling like I'm doing it wrong. I mean it is weird to think that at my age my folks were hitched, and they were expecting me any month now. It's weird to think about that. I'm nowhere near even thinking about kids. I still think it is weird that my little sister pooped out my nephew almost a year ago. 

When I started writing this I had a point I was going to make about the song, but as I've gotten distracted several times I don't think I got it out. I think I'm going to attempt to write this again later on. 

I guess this is sort of like growing up.

Comments

[Jen (Huckdoll)]

The 20s was such a fucked up decade for me.

I really don't think anyone knows what to do with their 20s, there's no right or wrong.

I started my 20s off with a 4-day coke bender in Whistler, spent my mid 20s devoting life to a school and career in Vancouver and Victoria, and ended them with 3 year old twin girls, a condo in the suburbs, an affair with a married guy and a drink problem, so.

Maybe I did it wrong but who's really to say, you know?

All I know is in your 30s everything finally clicks, so don't think about it too much and keep discovering and enjoy your 20s :)